Is that really a word why are you ask any cancer patient who is waiting for scans and then waiting for the results

I’ve not been sleeping too well worrying (I’m not even a worrier) I l kJ BBCI

I know my cancer is not curable but has it moved again? Living with this bastard has just become the norm.

There are so many things I have learned inside this experience that has changed me internally and that has affected my life and those around me in such a way positive scary and beautiful way that it’s been the most horrific thing in my life but May also be a blessing that I can now see and embrace the bigger picture.

The goal as it turns out he is not to get well soon but to heal as best you can on your own time. Cancer stop me in my tracks and I think I’ve become a better human being because of it. Unfortunately there is no get well soon guy that comes with a cancer diagnosis that is the ultimate goal of get rid of cancer. 

But the treatment plan for a cancer patient is there nothing beyond the small print about the side effects on your body and mind. I have just learnt and adapted to do the very best I can. Am I a warrior or thriver fuck knows I’m just moving forward.

CT scan and the effects metallic taste in the mouth warm feeling in the lower body almost feeling like you’ve wet yourself very weird

MRI noisy long just relax and don’t move you’re not going anywhere.